Tomorrow I graduate.
I didn’t cry on Senior Band Night. I don’t think I’ll cry tomorroww either. But it’s so weird… I got a strange feeling on Thursday, when the only reason I came up to the school was to return my text books. It was about 9 30 A.M and I hadn’t been awake for too long. I returned my books into the text book office, then went to the FAC to return a camera. After that, I went to the bathroom to make sure I didn’t look TOO dreadful. (I was going to the mall later.) After I stepped out of the bathroom in the FAC, I looked at the empty halls, and I experienced brief flashbacks. First they were of what these halls looked like on the way to 5th period; crammed with kids and infested with affectionate couples. Then I saw sweaty band kids cooling off from intense marching rehearsals sitting against the walls with their friends eating lunch. Then I remembered my freshman year of high school, and how I always saw my at-the-time crush in this hallway. It was really weird. I had never experienced such intense flashbacks. I had so many great memories in high school. It doesn’t feel like it should be over. I’m leaving such great things behind. Those fun Friday night football games where we all danced our asses off and played/conducted the fight song. Going over to the visitors side to introduce ourselves to the other band. That amazing feeling you get after a performance at marching competitions. (okay so I’m a nerd and all my best memories are with band, but what’s wrong with that? :P )But I’m moving on to much greater things. I guess I’ll just have to get use to it. No matter how many times I’ve trash-talked our shitty little school, I’m going to miss AHS.
I’m not sure what I’m feeling.
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Unfortunatley, people change. Maybe this is a temporary thingg. But if yiu’re really best friends, you’ll both get through this
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people aways want what they can’t have. In your case, it’s a girl.
So instead of lusting (not particularly sexually, but out of selfish want) try to get to know her better to see if she’s REALLY what you want, or if you only want her because someone else has her. Become friends, but don’t hint that you are interested in her at all. Keep it casualand friendly and find out more about her
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What is? Both of you being together? Is she taken?
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I’m so sorry. Maybe you’re trying to compensate for something. Maybe you’ve been walked all over before, been used over and over and over again, and now, you’re subconsciously trying to turn the tables to make sure you won’t get hurt again.
